Hike Log for Gunung Nuang 1&2

Items: Non stick. Learning/absorbing. Neitszche. Brotherly love. Rigidity. What if. Banality. Insects prefer maidens.

Highlight of the day: Spolit/squashed bananas. Dog/Bitch/Hannah/Sandy, the finicky-fussy dog ranger guide and monkeyhunter. I prefer to call her dogdog in chinese. She'd always be a step ahead of us, and at ahead each rest spot you'll see her snoozing while waiting for you. We all got rather attached to the dog; ah i hated it when goodbye came. Had to carry the poor bitch down the bus coz she followed us up, and the driver then refused to come aboard. Poor thing that.

Lesson of the day: To bring non-stick pans if you are going to cook rosti or pancakes outfield. An aluminium pan simply cannot do. On the other hand the melon and milk were still the best ideas around. Ha! *beams*. Even the bananas made the difference in the pancakes.

Brotherly Love: Oh how i wish my sis was like that. Definitely sweet girl she is. Something in her that triggers that "big brother" instinct. Not that she needs it, she has her own bro on the trip as well. Not to mention that he's the pioneer batch for JCC. I respect that. ALOT. woah. Anyway, i just wish that my sis was just like her. A person like her would be so easy to love and care for. No, i know its not fair to say this. Mei has her own good spots. But they're rare amongst all that rubble. Worst thing is that she dosent even care. Even mom's given up to a certain degree; i have too. Still. At times id imagine she was my sis. Sigh. Thats not good. Seriously.

Neitzsche: Bought clare his 21st yr present: Book by Fred Nietzsche. Read it on the bus and at the base camp. He dosent really understand it. Neither do I. Think we will have to read it slowly. Its just like old times, we arguing over how the name should be pronounced. NEE-ASH is what he says. NEE-SHE is what i proclaim. I think we both are wrong. heh. Fred N appears to be either very egocentric, or has stumbled upon some revelation that shattered him so that his very words look so haunted and frightful, full of gloom. I guess i will want to ask Kevin to give an introduction to Mr N; i dont think i can understand him by myself.

Banality 1: Played those silly card games and became a level 4 pig. But this pig is powerful and soon stumped the rest with even more banalstupid games like Around the world in eighty days, Chinese chopsticks, blackmagic, beer&milk etc. I am a king. No, better. I am a god. they grovel at my feet. Hahhaha its official then. NUS students are much more crappy than NTU students.

after all the rustlebustle clare n i finally get time to sit down n chitchat.

Rigidity: It seems clare has probs of his own, with his sig other n all. Problems of rigidity and refusal to comprehend. Im thinking if a little yielding might help. After all smashing two rocks together will only result in attrition. I hope he realises that his belief in certain principles are too firm to be adaptable to some situations. We are not always dealing with an authority that can be confronted and rebelled against. Heh. To that we both are veterans; pinpoint lights that rage against this cloying darkness. Well, what we presume to be darkness, anyway. Dealing with people on equal ground, now that is much tougher. Oh i cannot presume to have the answers or even know if my suggestions will be helpful. i am not him after all. But it has set me thinking on a couple of issues from many tangents. Whatever it is, i wish him the best.

What If: The most scary thing he told me, however, was this. Quoted from "the Time Machine", someone was telling the time traveller, that man's greatest folly and fear lay in the form of a question: What If.
What if i die tomorrow? And What if there is nothing after death? What if climb to the top of the mountain and find out there is nothing at all? What if the road finally ends and there is nothing there? not even todash and darkness? What if we are just mere organisms living out a finite lifespan, with no soul except one that is imagined by the exceptionally imaginative human mind? What if there is no God?
My problem may lie in this question. I question too much, ask too much for what cannot be answered. All the time i say that certain issues can only exist outside our rationality, but i keep on trying to rationalize it. Like the way a programmed robot cannot accept it when told 2+2 = 5. Rigidity of the mind? Must I further yield?
The power of the question. Dangerous. And scary.

No bad dreams or rather, unpleasant ones for these two nights. I am happy. Oh man. So relieved. But to trade that for cold cold feet. Woke up so many times in the night. Miserable sleeping. Roughing it out. I love it.

The hammock is really useful. If used as one layer, it seals you up from insects and pests like people cooking right beside you, and traps heat. Like a cocoon. hooo. And it allows you to change clothes within without too much fuss too. In with berms, out with slacks. Metamorphosis! Eheheh the ppl ard didnt even know i was changing in there. I now can have my own privacy whereever i go.

Banality 2 (The BanalDuo and MLTR/CelineDion/Campsongs): Oh call me an asshole for calling that guy in the yellow shirt a damn friggin geek! Bastard goes singing so full heartedly mltr shit and celine dion crap, and far worse, CAMP SONGS. Oh god oh god oh god i had to push on forward far from the group to be free of that aural murder. I wonder how xuhao's been taking it.. prolly stuffed his ears with cotton etc. ohgod at any rate me n clar just can NOT stand it. Its a good thing they dont understand the word "banal", coz we've been screaming out "banality alert on the badar!" everytime they belted out seriously out of tune mltr songs. Ohgodhelpusall.

Insects prefer maidens: Thats right. They do. I got, count ONE bite, while most the ladies have galactic starmaps etched on their arms and tighs. Most the guys have none. Then again leeches are more attracted to guys, i think. This poor sod had 2-3 bites at one sitting. Must be extra sweet blood.




The train will have to wait. I must stay a while longer. Decisions cannot come so quickly. I will wait. But I am sick of this. And tired. And really cannot bear to wait. But i will. iwillwaitiwillwaitiwillwait. Irregardless i will still run after the train.

Time is relative, and no one can be sure how the configuration will be each time you look at it. Ill try to hold on as much as i can.