damage control!!

Another tiring day. No idea why so. only had 2hr of lessons, then sorting of mail and reading abt dinosaurs. "THE DINOSAUR HERESIES" tell of new theories on dinosaur physiology, behaviour, evolution and extinction. A far cry from the victorians who saw them as stupid lumbering monsters("Dinosaurs were failures in the evolutionary test of time" they said. sheesh!). Why tired? Might it be the fact tht im trying to suppress a flu? Enjoyed the pasta at the pgp cookout, tho im paying for it as usual, tummy doth protest pasta when sick. And its hammers again.

Evo IVLE forum wars have started. So far Anne's dropped the biggest bomb. Ive been to engrossed with dinos to actually read up on critical stuff and reply. too tired now anyway. do it 'morrow. I dis enjoy reading abt popper n kuhn. Suspect tht clar's creation mags use cooroborative methods instead of falsification. We'll see how. Decided to borrow his Ken Ham book n creation mags again to read. Ill have to bring myself up to speed if i want to live thru this. Its survival of the fittest, and my fitness isnt anywhere near 1. more like 0.2.. ergh.

Rather shocked n unhappy about an incident today. Saw that cute girl from class passing by and i told a friend beside tht she was. So he called her over to tell her tht. Oh man. Dont think she was amused. Im in shock. Can picture her looking glancing at me n saying "creep". ugh. Seriously now. If a guy buddy tells u some ham's boobs are nice u dont tell her when she comes round that the guy said ur cantalopes are big. ok im exagerrating but thts how it felt. Sigh. Well done bun cant be undone, guess ill have to live with her picturing "creep" erytime she notices me. heheh. No im not harboring any hard feelings to that buddy of mine. Now that ive gotten this outta my system,

i'd like to address the pokethingy issue. Im sorry that its gotten into quite a bit of a mess, spanning continents(!). I do say again i absolutely abhor pokecrap, its a personal issue, like the way somw have with boybands etc. ( i do abhor bb too). Teddies are fine, whats wrong with them? Well, yeah ive been told i react too well to let go of it, i did get carried away and yeah it was fun for a while but its begining to bite back hard. My fault for making it thus. With great power comes great responsibility huh, as jacob sez. So now i implore to you all who are capable of feeling sympathy,
hath pity on this poor fellow here. Im going to stop posting and adding fuel to fire, cant win in this kind of situation anyway. Imploring to you all to stop too. And hopefully no scottish bards will sing 'ode to the nessie lover'. It was worth all the fun, but its kinda getting potentially damaging. I'd like it not reach that stage. *shudder*

And that goes for the fetish issue too, its rather dehumanising at times. Not that i really mind it, but picture this: grp of frens play 'family'. A becomes da, B becomes ma, C n D become kids. And poor D gets the position of Dog. humiliating isnt it. Again i am exagerrating, but just to show the point. I really am a fan of the gigerisque alien form, i like it for the sleekness and symmetry. Well some may not see it.. Call me wierd call me geek then, heh i dont mind. Im fine with the name calling and alleged liasons to xeno/zoomorphic forms. But im still human arent i? I do possess feelings and sensitivities too, contrary to popular belief. Sometimes it seems like im not being taken seriously any more. But what i DO NOT want to happen is that people stop joking round and the "hush-up-when-YC-comes-coz-oh-he's-rather-sensitive-to-this-and-that-you-know-lets-talk-about-the-weather" situation sets in. Hate that. Im no diamond cutter but im no fragile glass either. Please, thts not u, tht'll be a mask u wear for me. I really wouldnt like tht. Defeats the purpose of having frens anyway.
Sheesh i really didnt want to post this down.

In any case, with this out of the way:
Decided to take the SN1101E South asia mod. The one lionel said rather bluntly abt how u get to see the 'sufferings and corruptions' of a few nations. Heh. If i take that itll be 10-6 NONSTOP for me on mons. Will have to decide if i can take it. Well both luqman and lionel sez its damn easy so that is a very major drawing factor. I do need the points this sem! So by next week ill decide whether to take SN1101E South Asia or USE2305southeast asia. Hm. Decisions decisions.

The xenbar things still going strong. Will go down to discuss finer details with Justin @ xenabr tmr. Anyone keen to come have a look see be at kent ridge mrt 6pm. I hope my flu's ok by then. This is probably the only thing ill do for the 1st wave. Its big enough and a bloody headache as it is already. I must say im really not tht happy with the stands some ppl are taking on this affair. Shant say too much, not prudent to. I believe my sentiments are already discussed in fine detail by other(s). oh well. 2nd wave? anything. i remember that ive signed my name in blood beside the pentagram on the infernal contract so i guess ill have to honour it. XD XD XD