worms with souls

thank you carl for that enlightening talk. It all started at that little grass patch and we were discussing about the fate of worms didnt we?

The heat dosent bother me that much, i actually welcome it. aint bothered by it that much.. i do prefer a warm environment anyway. i do hope the weather remains like this at Aur. For oyu guys at home then i'll pray for rain.

a thistle is a thistle and is nothing more than a thistle.

I return home to find the entire garden clay and sand. the cupboards are ripped out from the study room. Dosent feel like home suddenly. i sit now in an empty room.

I have skinned animals plaguing my dreams now no thanks to leni. I hope for all the world that hamzah will see it, for i hear he has animal skins.

I think what peanut does has a measure of truth. Run like mad? get that rush? To actively search for something, isnt it at least a motive, direction? Lately ive been without a direction.
But still thanks to Nana n kev, i think im coming to another flashpoint. hope it goes well this time.

I hate it when there can be no resolution. i speak of changing it all the time but to no avail.
There is little which i can place trust in now. Another cycle to repeat itself?

Tommorrow i head to Aur. Finally something i look forward to. been to distracted otherwise. ill jump from the jetty with a handful of bread, and ill see that riot of colours and flashes surround me.

I wish i could write something better.

for the 1st time i get too tired and unconcerned to write. this is a sorry attempt i guess. Gosh. how long has it been!?

And why am i forcing myself to write?
Nothing resolved.
Big deal.