arrogant disgust

goddarnit its always only at 2 when my brain finnaly chugs to life. Before that it goes on strike and my body is held ransom. This is not good. Im wearing my body out, sleeping at (FIVE NOW!!) and am getting really wierd symptoms that my body dosent usually show. Reminds me of INSOMNIA by King. Next ill be seeing auras. Hyperreality. Goin to see the sch meddoc tmr. Im convinced im filled with trypanosomes or lancets or flukes or something, clogging up my system.

Helped Jack vet his essay today. Sometimes i feel he's friending me just use my knowledge of biology. Its not entirely baseless, those of you who know him should know how much results mean to him. And he acknowledges it outright. Disgusts me somewhat.

Ive found out that my critical thinking and knowledge processing has grown tremendously the past 6 months. This is what you get for using the brain, i guess. I am able to refute if i choose, most of what people say, or at least give them pause in their thoughts. I love evo for being able to correct all those.. ingoramuses in class. OR Bio-D, becoming almost like a teach myself to my friends. Im prize property during bioD pracs see? And being invited to BioD lab helpouts and evo-bio lab for eventual research.. omg. im the only guy in class he asked i think. Or at least showed up at the lab. Alright ill get straight to the point. With all this new power and new knowledge, i fear that i might become too arrogant with myself. Too smart. Too complacent. But one must remember that one can never learn or know enough. No matter how confident you are over an issue, situation, person, question is, there is always something to be learned, gained from there. I must always remember this. What was that phrase? Always the student, not the teacher. From Jet i think. Always to learn. Always to recieve. Fools open mouths the most.

Perhaps my arrogance is the reason why i am becoming more intolerant of certain people. Very evident, for those of you who know. Thanks to those who remind me and keep me in check. Those who might encourage, well, thanks anyway. I cherish critisism more than praise and encouragement.

So maybe i should be less harsh on DN and freddie krueger. Or that fule who does that take my hand thing. We are all humans after all. But if DN leaves his room open with lights on etc on more time... oh help me then..

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