Seeking the Dark Tower

On the path that eventually leads to the clearing in the woods, the Charyou Tree. Fraught with danger, fear and loss, and yet, fulfillment. Welcome.

Sunday, February 27, 2005


ohohohohohohohoho hollleeeeeee crap its finally RAINING!!!!

No one's in teh cluster n with it rainin n thunderin so dar n hard,
im blasting Iron Maiden out to 11 on the volume (know you spinal tap? XDXD)
n just screaming like Harris on stage with leather n long hair et al..


Oh man i cant wait for Gods Of Metal 13Mar. Man oh Man!!!

Hear ye, hear ye,


wow. per'incess came online to tell me she'd been keeping my hand-drawn G'NR pick with her all these years in her lil pouch. Hahah.. that was touching! N i had thought i'd lost it. Man. Kinda miss it too.. Good memories retained in that little pick.


Friday, February 18, 2005


omg. sinfest just so brightens the day. Im smiling already.

OHM: "I love sinfest so much my heart bends"

bends what? light rays? refraction? XP

worms with souls

thank you carl for that enlightening talk. It all started at that little grass patch and we were discussing about the fate of worms didnt we?

The heat dosent bother me that much, i actually welcome it. aint bothered by it that much.. i do prefer a warm environment anyway. i do hope the weather remains like this at Aur. For oyu guys at home then i'll pray for rain.

a thistle is a thistle and is nothing more than a thistle.

I return home to find the entire garden clay and sand. the cupboards are ripped out from the study room. Dosent feel like home suddenly. i sit now in an empty room.

I have skinned animals plaguing my dreams now no thanks to leni. I hope for all the world that hamzah will see it, for i hear he has animal skins.

I think what peanut does has a measure of truth. Run like mad? get that rush? To actively search for something, isnt it at least a motive, direction? Lately ive been without a direction.
But still thanks to Nana n kev, i think im coming to another flashpoint. hope it goes well this time.

I hate it when there can be no resolution. i speak of changing it all the time but to no avail.
There is little which i can place trust in now. Another cycle to repeat itself?

Tommorrow i head to Aur. Finally something i look forward to. been to distracted otherwise. ill jump from the jetty with a handful of bread, and ill see that riot of colours and flashes surround me.

I wish i could write something better.

for the 1st time i get too tired and unconcerned to write. this is a sorry attempt i guess. Gosh. how long has it been!?

And why am i forcing myself to write?
Nothing resolved.
Big deal.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

another song

Its coming back again. Its bloody late again and i cant sleep, selective insomnia, but things have cascaded and a song took form from a poem i wrote awhile ago. A real song, one that seems real and truthful enough to myself to accept. Most of the others were just husks, empty, void. Its short and sweet. Well, not sweet. Haunting at least, as Fiza says it.
Some things i keep my own. I never dare sing my songs. They're mine alone. I'd never dare.

Sunday, February 06, 2005



Strata strata HERE I COME!!!!

(running through the bushes pouncing off the rocks eons old invirogated by the cool night air as the stars shine full and i leap the edge eclipse the moon)